I let it happen again. I threw myself a little pity party yesterday. I just kept thinking how unfair it is that Wayne and I can't have a "normal" relationship.
It's not fair that we can't go on date nights once a week.
It's not fair I've only been with him about 2 months out of the past two years.
It's not fair he has to work so hard to earn us the money to be able to see each other.
It's not fair I have to graduate college before we can get married.
It's not fair that no one will give him a chance to work here so he can be here with me.
Unfortunately, our parents were telling us the truth when they said "life isn't fair." It's an awful, mean, ugly fact.
Last night, I cried myself to sleep. This happens every once in a while, usually when it's that time of month, ifyouknowwhatimean. I know that sounds so middle school pathetic-- sorry.
Anyway, the point of this post is to be thankful. I'm so thankful to our Heavenly Father that Wayne is willing and able to work as hard as he can to earn enough money to see me. I'm thankful for Wayne for working so hard. He hardly ever gets a day off, and I fear I often take this for granted.
Wayne, though I miss you constantly, I know one day we'll be together all the time. When we finally are able to live together, I pray we never take that for granted.
Being with the one you love is a precious thing. It's a privilege that I can't wait to earn.
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My beautiful Jenn, I know just how hard it is been so far apart and I miss you so very much every second I am away from you. everything will work out one day soon. I love you more than anything forever and ever
Oh, my friend, I could throw a pity party on any given day of the month. I don't really know when the urge will come to have one. I think I'll just call them surprise parties. That sounds so much more exciting, doesn't it?
Just remember to enjoy this season of your life. It's not easy, and it may not necessarily be what you want right now, but know that it's what you need. You go through everything that you go through because you're supposed to. It's all a part of His plan for you. There's much to love about this particular time in your life. Live it up. Love it. Enjoy it.
Please remind me that I said all of this the next time that I decide to throw a pity party of my own.
Not pathetic in the least, If I was away from someone I loved as much as the two of you are, I'd be having pity parties every other hour!
I know it can't be easy but you have a plan and at the end of it you'll get your happy ending, keep thinking of that! You could have monthly parties that you are that much closer to being married, to being together! Don't focus on the NOT being together now, think of when you'll be together every day loving every second.
If you ever need to moan, just swing me an email :) I'm here for you girl!
morgan is wise. and what she said is true. while being with the one you love is wonderful, there's also a lot of responsibility. so have fun, enjoy your time now and just know that soon all of this will be over and soon you'll be somewhere else. it'll happen fast. just you wait and see!
out of curiosity, how much college do you have left before you and wayne will wed?
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