Today has been a really stressful, really sad day. I'm so ready for it to be over.
Tomorrow will be another sad and stressful day, and I am really NOT looking forward to it.
I'm sure I'm not the only one who has simply thought to herself "I am so sad." I have been thinking that to myself over and over again today. I'm sure that's not really helpful. It probably makes it worse, but it's true. I'm just so sad. And so stressed.
Wayne was here for 16 days, and it was not nearly long enough. This summer I've been taking three classes: Elementary Math, Grammar, and Graphic Novels. This has really been hard on me. Harder than it should be. I'm not sure what's wrong with me, but I guess I'm just really not meant to live with someone who I really don't like and have all my friends either hours away or busy with classes of their own all the time. I've been lonely and pretty darn sad. Oh, and stressed!
Then Wayne came 16 days ago and pulled me right out of my slump. He made my life full of joy and colorful again. He never once made me feel guilty for having to leave him for two-and-a-half-hour classes. He supported me while I was studying or doing homework. Then he took me out for dinner and a movie and tubing and Stone Mountain and sunsets and camera-buying. He's the best, seriously.
I thought maybe since I'd be moving out the day after he left, then leaving for New York the day after that, that maybe I'd be too busy to miss him. Let's be honest, we're never too busy to miss the ones we love. And, oh! I love Wayne so much!
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Jennifer, I'm so sorry that you're so sad. Of course it's okay to feel sad. You have all right to. Please promise me, though, that you'll keep trying to look towards the future. It's so hard when you know exactly what you want, and you know that it will make you so happy, and you also know that you can't have it right now. Know that it will come. It will. I don't understand God's timing (I wonder if anyone does). I know, though, that He plans our lives so perfectly, and I know that he has designed a perfect plan for you and Wayne. Your happy ending will come. Trust in Him, and it will come.
I love you, Jennifer. Good luck on all of your exams! I'm excited to see you tomorrow and I'm SO excited for New York!
P.S. I love the pictures! Well, all of them except for that one that I took. Yuck. Yours are so much better.
I have been so sad all day, on the plane on the train on the tram and on the bus and now that I am back in England I am still sad and I miss you so so much, but the second I got of the plane I thought to my self my journey to get back to my Jenn starts here. I love you so much and I will make you happy every day of your life. I love you more than anything forever.
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